I Should Have Known

It's funny how life forces you into situations. We spend a good bit of our lives avoiding difficult things, but eventually, life just forces us to face those difficulties until we finally learn our lessons. My weekend was difficult, to say the least. The weekend was difficult long before it actually happened, and let me tell you, I had no idea how hard it was actually going to be.

I think I'm finally accepting that my birthday is only important to a small group of people, but man am I glad I have those people in my life. I used to look forward to November 10th for the entire month prior because the day itself was always so fantastic. It was my favorite day of the year. Sadly, I've been so disappointed on this day for the past few years, but this year, in the midst of my disappointment, I was reminded how good I've got it... and that the right people will always come through for me.

On Friday, my birthday plans were not what I wanted them to be. I had something totally different in mind. I think this is where life just intervened... put me in my place... took me to the exact place I was supposed to be these 3 days. It was a painful time for me and for my friends... there were many things that I was trying to forget... many things I was holding on to... situations I was trying to create and control... emotions I just didn't want to have anymore... and then it became evident that I was there for my friend, not just for myself. I realized that there is always a reason... there was a reason why I ended up in Raleigh for my birthday, with the people I was with... There is always a reason.

I am learning... always learning... even if I can't understand.